can we please stop the senseless violence? not even a day after he graduated from UB with his electrical engineering degree & he gets fatally shot in the back. we will miss you javon :’[

sooooo i kinda miss blogging. i have a lot going on but i’m going to try to design a new layout and start up again … probably in june when i get back from bermuda. in the meantime, you can still catch me on twitter!

just in case you were wondering, i’m still alive. there’s just been so much going on in my life & i’ve been trying to figure shit out. i’ll blog again eventually when i feel like it but until then i’ll be around.

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first, i want to say happy new year to everyone. i hope 2009 brings more happiness & prosperity for everyone. my 2009 started alright. i came back to work on january 5th and it was annoying as all hell. i won’t get into it but let’s just say getting the campaign live was rough and there were a lot of bumps in the road. but my boss knows that i put in extra time to help teach people how to use our ad server since i’m considered the guru - but only b/c i always get stuck doing it. and i was there to help him tie up loose ends for other campaigns and such. i know i just got promoted in november, but i’m hoping once i work on my presentation skills, i can get promoted again next november if i’m still here. depending on how things play out in the next month, i might start looking for a new job. i know i’ve said that in the past but i mean it this time. it’s been made pretty clear by management that they don’t want me to leave and my boss made that clear too but if they have nothing for me to work on, what’s the point? we’ll see what happens…

i had been going through some of my own shit that week too so it was just bad. whatever. then i found out that bitches are still talking about me, my name is coming out of their nasty ass mouths. WHY? idk & it pisses me off b/c they don’t know. smh. i can’t help it if i’m doing things with my life and they’re not. don’t hate. worry about yourself don’t worry about me. it’s not problem bitches are insecure and shit!

i’m also pretty sad about my giants but i still love ‘em and there’s always next year! fck the eagles. ravens better take it all!

after the rough start at work, i found out on friday afternoon that a college friend of mine had passed away. she was such a sweet girl. it’s sad. i don’t really want get into it either, but rest in peace leah garcia, you’ll be missed dearly.

merry christmas! hope everyone enjoys their xmas and spends it with their families & loved ones. for the 2nd year in a row i’ve gotten into retarded fights on xmas eve with my sisters and mom. it’s like they like to gang up on me for DUMB shit. i definitely left last year to go to a party my friend was dj’ing b/c i was so fed up with their shit. and i would’ve again this year only the weather was shit outside. but other than that xmas was like any other day full of cooking and baking. the gift giving aspect of the holiday is not even exciting anymore. my sisters and parents always have to ask me what i want which was nothing this year. ever since i started working, if i saw something i wanted i would just buy it for myself. i’m currently materialistically content. ask me about my emotional needs and that’s a completely different story. there’s only one thing i’ve wanted for the past 2 months and no one can help me with that one :\ but i don’t even want to go there right now.

i’m so glad i’ve been off from work since last friday. our office is closed until 1/5 anyway but i had a few PTO days i still needed to use since they don’t carry over. it’s nice to sleep in until whenever i want. what was a pain in the ass was that we’re still waiting for assets for one of the campaigns that go live right after we get back into the office. we were suppose to receive them originally on 12/12 (deadline that the creative shop & client gave us) but that got pushed back. and we still don’t have assets. smh. so even though i was off from work, i was still actively checking emails. and then my boss got sick with the flu on tuesday so i had to really check emails. our assistant was the only one in the office and she isn’t capable of much. smh. i ended up going into the office on tuesday to pick up some stuff from my desk that i couldn’t bring home last week. whatever. i’m going to try not to think about work until i get back to the office.

i’ve been working on my T.I. fansite - kingofthasouth.com. that’s my baby right there. the content is a bitch to compile. i found all my old files on my old external hard drive so i’m trying to re-code and update everything. thank god i had the files saved on my hard drive since i lost everything online when the site got hacked back in 2007. coppermine gallery also got a lot more complicated than i remember it being. the batch file add shit isn’t working for me and i want to use my own thumbnails so until i figure that out, i can’t open the gallery. smh. i’ll plug the site more once it’s fully launched. until then, hope everyone enjoys their holidays!

after a recent chain of events, i’ve decided that it’s time for me to continue to pursue some of my dreams that i had put on hold. i’ve been emotionally stressed for the past month and a half - and i don’t get stressed easily. i’m giving myself two years to get my shit together and move. hopefully i won’t come across anything in those two years that will hold me back and keep me here.

i’ve always wanted to live in los angeles. i was hoping to get that out of my system for undergrad but when i didn’t, i still had hope for doing it for grad school. my GRE scores weren’t were i wanted them to be when i took the exam before i graduated but i didn’t give myself enough time to study. but now with all these people going straight from undergrad to grad to avoid trying the job market and grad school applicants increasing, i put that on hold. i like my job, i do. but i can’t afford to pay for school on my own. i’ve thought this out though.

i’ve always wanted to go to usc. besides that it’s a great school, i’ve just always wanted to go there. when people doubted that i could even get in and laughed at me for even trying to go there, of course it made me want it more. and i got to prove them all wrong for undergrad. it felt great, but crushing at the same time when i couldn’t go b/c of financial aid. let’s just say, it’s a private school. that should say enough about the tuition i would’ve had to pay. getting a degree from there is just one of the things i’m determined to cross off my to do list.

these recent chain of events have also made me realize some things about people in general. but it’s what i needed to finally allow myself to cut certain people out of my life. i remember my homeboy said to me once. if people did wrong and i let them know, it’s up to them to figure their shit out and come back to me. if they didn’t, then i knew they were not worth my time. no matter how much it hurts, it’s something i have to do. despite all the pain, i still have a place for you in my heart.

happy birthday to me! the big 23. i feel old. damnit. haha. the day is almost over but every year it’s always a surprise to see who remembers and who doesn’t. some people don’t think it’s a big deal, but it is. when you remember someone’s birthday but they don’t remember yours? and especially now that people have facebook and myspace to remind them! it’s little shit like this that i remember and like about people. who takes time to text me vs who just writes on my facebook wall. my little called me at 9am and left me a voicemail, singing happy birthday to me. aw she had me smiling on the bus lol. & to think that after all he’s been ignoring me, he still text me. put a damn smile on my face, i couldn’t help it. they surprised me at work too lol. my friend at work and my college friend that know each other, got me cupcakes :] & my teammates bought me a baskin robbins ice cream cake! <3. and one of our reps came in with wings, beer, and wine so we just chilled in the office for a bit.

what was rude though was that people from other departments where coming by and taking food too. mind you we didn’t know half the people and they were like what’s the occasion? my rep told them it was my birthday as if they knew who i was and they said happy birthday before they dug in to get food. please, save your fake shit take a wing and keep it moving. at first it was fine until they would hang around and take the food to the cubes in the area next to us and eat there among themselves, and they would come and take like 5 beers for their teammates b/c they were too shy to come over say hi and take it themselves. for real? we work harder than they do at times and we sure as hell are not their food suppliers. they got use to my team always having food and they’d see when we use to sit by the door. now that we moved cubes and are in a more secluded area they still stop by once in awhile and ask where the food is if we don’t have any. are you for real? tell your reps to get you your own food instead of being rude. bottom line, interactive is where it’s at! lol. don’t be mad that your clients are spending less money with you on broadcast and are shifting dollars to online media! that’s the end of my rant on that.

i have this coach coupon that gives me 25% off my entire purchase. then i got this email today for coach cares. basically, celebrities choose a coach bag and if you buy the bag that they choose, 20% of the cost goes towards their charity of choice. so i thought wow i can do something good for charity AND get a discount on the bag i want (b/c kerry washington chose the bag i want). unfortunately though, the coupon i have is not good for online purchases and i’m sorry but 25% on a $498 bag is a big chunk of change. trust though, i still have a kind, giving heart. i just won’t be donating this way via coach.

yay! new domain name. if you don’t know what excentricity means go look it up. i had to improvise and make it british b/c the english version i wanted was taken. boo. but oh well. i like it (for now). i might’ve forgotten a few links so let me know if i did. otherwise, i’m still fixing shit up but i’m going to try to be better at updating. until then, xoxo.